What can I say, I'm stubborn.
That's probably why, rather than writing the gushing love post to Hubby I planned to write about pitter pattering hearts in honor of our 7th anniversary, I'm writing this post instead. The truth is, I'm not feeling very pittery. I'm exhausted, my teeth are killing me, and I'm buried up to my eyeballs in independent contract work-some that are trying to negotiate me down to 1/4 of my price, and some that won't even pay me until January. For the last few days I've been perpetually on the prowl for the next person to piss me off so that I can destroy them....I'm the freakin' fairy of flippin' fun right now....and do you know what the best part is?
Hubby loves me anyway.
That's right-I haven't gotten out of my pajamas since Friday. I haven't brushed my hair in that time and I've only taken one shower. I smell like that special putrid blend of Eau de Mommy, and my disposition is twice as sour, but my husband loves me no matter how I act or smell.
He doesn't care that I've gained 25lbs since The Bean was born either-he still thinks I'm sexy (and I've got the hickeys to prove it). He doesn't care that I'm a mess at this point, he would never leave me. He'd fight me, for sure-he's always pushing me to do more and do better for myself, even when I'd rather fight him than listen to him-but he doesn't mind fighting my ridiculous stubbornness....if that's what's best for me he'd fight me for me forever.
That's what a real relationship is all about. It's easy to think in the abstract about all of the ooooey gooey mushy love fluff, but when you're in a committed-forever relationship you have to have more than that or you'll fail. It's also easy to set up a system in your head and pretend that things will always work that way, but that rarely happens either. Real love has romance, and there is some direction, but mostly it is a lot of hard work. It's loving someone no matter what-thick or thin, grumpy or happy, exhausted or well rested, poor or rich, foul or fragrant-that's unconditional love. It's a lot of hard work, but it's worth it. Just ask Hubby....
....Though maybe not right now, because he already got an earful today while I was on one of my fury rampages and I'm pretty sure he just wants to sleep peacefully at the moment.
Happy 7th Anniversary Lovey Bear~
With all my heart,
Your petulant but adoring wife