Okay you're all my friends, right? Good. Because I really need to blow off steam about my stupid family and Hubby's sleeping so...yeah, sorry.
I have just had it with them. My dad is being a total jerk lately. He told me months ago that he wanted to take Monkey out for the day for his birthday. Sure, okay fine...but then I call him to try to set something up and he avoids my calls for weeks. I leave messages and everything, but I get nothing. I finally have to call from Hubby's phone so that he won't recognize the number and he will actually pick up-what kind of ass doesn't answer the phone when their kid calls? Or at least call them back later? My dad, that's who.
So I finally trick him into talking to me (for about two minutes) and he says he'll pick Monkey up on Saturday and spend the whole day with him because my dad and step mom want to take him to the zoo and to dinner and ice cream. Super-sounds fun. Then I talk to my sister a little later and she mentions that, unbeknownst to me, my son will be coming to my niece's birthday party. That's an almost two hour drive from here, out of state! Is it just me or should my dad have mentioned that he planned on taking my child out of state?
And maybe my sister should have, I don't know, mentioned that my niece was having a birthday party. Perhaps even invited me to it...especially since she and my dad planned it so that my son was going to be there...but when I mentioned that I was a little upset about the whole thing my sister said "well, he can just take him wherever he wants-he's his grandpa". Uh F* THAT. I'm sorry, he might be his grandpa but I'm his freaking MOM. Then I flat out asked if I was invited to the birthday party and she said "I guess". She guesses.
It seems obvious that they're trying to do everything in their power to leave me out so I ask my sister WTF is up with that and she says that "not everyone agrees with how you're living your life". Really? What part of how I live is objectionable? I'm sorry if staying home to home school my kids, deciding to have three children, and not making as much money as everyone else in my family makes them uncomfortable but I'm not doing anything wrong-I'm just not doing it their way like they feel I should.
Because, you know, their way works so well. They all have happy marriages and happy children and...no? Well, at least they all have money and we all know how that puts you on the moral high ground.
I have half a mind to set up plans with my in laws before my niece's party and force my dad to bring Monkey home-since I can't just come out and tell my dad that he's being (a) insulting and (b) wildly inappropriate as far as I'm concerned. I don't know I'm just pissed-and, stupidly, hurt. None of this should come as any surprise to me really-they've all been crappy to me since before I can remember-but no matter how many times I go through it I can never seem to get over being just a little bit hurt by their actions.
I do my best at everything and I work really hard. I really truly believe I am doing the right thing by my husband and my children. I have been NOTHING but kind (and accepting, and eternally forgiving) to my entire family no matter how crappy they have been to me. I am a good person-and you know what? I'm kinda done with them.
I feel better. Not that anything is resolved (it probably never will be) but it's nice of you guys to lend an e-ear to a crazy person. I'm going to go get into a hot bath now and try to relax.